equanimity

[For MDP]

equanimity

two heads

two steeds

composure ripped

to shreds

stiff upper-lip

lost

swapped

for something else stiff

but what the cost
atavistic ardour

blood boils

evaporating sang-froid

in steamy fervour

what have you done to me

what have you done with me

do I need to see a priest

confession

or

exorcism

what have you released

in me

some ravenous beast

salivating

priapic

burning with lust

the young red wolf

eponymous

nomenclature

I should love to lie with you again

to imbibe your caramel-cream musk

to wipe the perspiration from your fevered brow

to caress your beautiful face

to stroke your beard

to cup your head

to kiss your curves

to lick your body

to suckle on your nipples

I want so much more…

awoken
a dormant libido
I never knew I had
thinking warmly
of your smile
your touch
your kiss
your embrace
your heat
and hot myself
erections aplenty
but passion dampens
with realisation
we two
are too
distraído
to organise
and uphold
any affinity

what have you done
where has it gone
my equanimity

 [Image description: copy of The Charioteer]

Some of the references in poem are to the allegory of the charioteer, which can be found in Phædrus by Plato and in Mary Renault's The Charioteer.

Men Fake Orgasms Too.

An interesting statistic was revealed by the BBC recently: just as women do from time to time, apparently men sometimes fake orgasms (Britain Unzipped). In a demonstration of the dumbing down at the UK’s national public broadcaster, this information was broadcast on the youth channel, BBC3, with no explanation (failing to fulfil Auntie Beeb’s educational remit). Indeed, the presenters seemed completely unable to comprehend how a man could fake an orgasm.

I suspect that the two male hosts did not understand what an orgasm actually is and were confusing orgasm with ejaculation. An orgasm is not necessarily an experience solely centred around the genitals, but can affect muscles around the body and thus can be experienced throughout one’s physicality. These are the physiological orgasmic responses. However, additionally, orgasms are part psychological: a reaction and interaction of mind and emotions.

One can ejaculate without experiencing orgasm. For me this has happened on occasion when I have imbibed too much alcohol; when I’ve been clinically depressed; or, when taking certain medications. Obviously in such or similar circumstances, it is quite possible to fake orgasmic responses. I am reliably informed by straight women friends, that men do not generally whip off the condom and flash their ejaculate in front of their partner. And as a queer guy, I can concur with this observation in respect to my male partners.

Contrariwise, a man can orgasm without ejaculating or even having an erection. For many menfolk, whatever their sexuality, stimulation of their prostate can lead to la petite mort. Yet others can orgasm through nipple-stimulation. Obviously, in these circumstances it will be much more difficult to fake ejaculation, unless one is prone to pre-cumming.

As a disabled guy, often under the influence of medicaments, I cannot rely on erection and/or orgasm. This means I have had to explore my sexuality: kissing, frottage, licking, caressing... A sensuous exploration of pleasure. And it’s relatively safe-sex to that end. Orgasms are not the be-all-and-end-all.